Damn, I still can’t remember her name, though I’ve tried to remember it. Like
her, fuzzy.
FUCK, I’m serious, I don’t want to feel like this,
go through these emotions every time. I can’t believe last night I drove by
her house. And now I’m searching the web, hoping to find a scrap, something
to hold on to, since I wasn’t letting go of the memory any time soon.
FUCK, I’m serious, god almighty. So many available women out there, so many
I could meet, and maybe date, and maybe we could get to know
each other…
Yeah right, I’m so fucked, and I don’t know how to get out. I want her still,
I want her so bad, I just want to see her, just want to smell her, or not even
smell, just sense her presence. God, Beatrice is so not an exaggeration.
FUCK, I wanted to write a song, a poem, something worthy of her, like she’d
hear it and want me. FUCK, I shouldn’t be waiting and wanting for others to
want or need or love or fucking any of it. Chirst, man, I’m so fucking pissed at myself.
I must keep trying, keep trying to find a song for
her.
Outline form:
Still in mind
Drive by cliché
Squint, brow gets notted, look far away